A Collection of Invitations

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Eleven days, nine states, two national parks, forty-nine state license plates, kids bickering, countless songs and pit stops, and so many lessons learned from immersing ourselves in the landscape of life. Our family’s cross-country road trip punctuated a summer – and a year – full of invitations to learn and grow. I was on the other side of, what some might call, a healing crisis when we landed in Badlands National Park, a magical place that stunned me with its beauty and reinforced a truth I’ve come to know through healing:

Life is a collection of invitations to remember our wholeness.

WHOLENESS

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Revolutionary Healing Part 5: Self-Expression

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I’m still learning how to embody the magic and medicine of self-expression after years of actively healing my body, mind, heart, and spirit through expressive practices.

My therapist highlighted this recently when I shared a letter with her that I’d written in my journal. I’d intended to feel and express my anger through this writing; however, after three tries (including two invitation from her to try again), she helped me see how I’d intellectualized the emotion every single time.

I quite easily thought and wrote ABOUT my anger, but I didn’t actually FEEL or EXPRESS it.

Suppression of Self

Anger is one of the four core […]

Revolutionary Healing Part 3: The Power of Partnership

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In the early stages of my healing, I oriented myself toward fixing my dis-ease and toward the belief that I was not OK. So I scurried from one practitioner or doctor to another, certain that one of them would confirm my belief with a diagnosis and fix what (I thought) broke in me. Many did offer me a plan or a protocol, and for a time I thought that if I ate their diet, took their supplements, followed their steps, or bought their program, I’d be well.

This is what I unconsciously sought then—someone to do the heavy lifting for me, to give me an […]

Revolutionary Healing Part 2: What Do You Believe?

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For much of my early life I resisted feeling my feelings. Instead, I distracted myself from them and focused on what I believed needed fixing in me. By the time I entered graduate school it had been years since anorexia wasted my flesh. But I still had a contentious relationship with my body, so my “fixing” at the time held the tune of an eating disorder but the volume was turned down to a loud whisper. It didn’t show on the outside—I looked perfectly well—but my thoughts and behavior patterns revealed a more subtle truth, one that I wasn’t aware of at the time:

A […]

Revolutionary Healing Part 1: Curing or Healing?

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I began this Curing or Healing post one sleepless night a few blurry weeks ago, tugged by the swell of activation energy in my physical and emotional body. After much editing, I’m sharing what was my stream-of-consciousness-style writing in a series of posts that expand on an earlier blog about revolutionary healing. Ultimately this series stems from my lived experience healing myself and catalyzing healing for and with others. It is a beginning attempt at pulling it all together for you. No two healing stories are the same, and as such, there is no definitive “how-to” for healing. This, rather, is a framework, with boundaries […]

Three Experiments for Catalyzing Self-Trust

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I Don’t Know…

These three words are powerful. I hear them often in my conversations with womxn, and I’ve thought, spoken, even screamed them many times, too. I’ve noticed that feeling disconnected from our knowing is a theme for womxn and that it often stems from self-doubt. Feeling resourced and connected to our knowing stems from self-trust. It’s clear to me after decades of healing, both experienced and observed, that catalyzing self-trust is one of the foundational elements in revolutionary healing.

Origins

I remember struggling with decisions—big and small—in my youth: Should I buy the shirt, take the class, break up with […]

Alchemizing Healing with Our Symptoms

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The conversations I have with women—clients, friends, and healers—illuminate the commonalities we share in our healing processes. If you’re a return reader you know I share my personal process at times, a process which I know has no end. I will always be healing, evolving, transforming. This is true for anyone on a healing path. It’s one of a handful of universal healing principles I’m realizing through my process and my work.

Recently some uncomfortable (and old) symptoms returned to my body and reminded me of this truth once again. I am always in process. A conversation with my homeopath about these symptoms […]

On the Practice and Power of Pausing

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It’s Election Day today. I woke at 4:30am with an anxious kiddo who needed some TLC. Our tween daughter’s angst, while understandable, felt rather unmanageable in our attempt to arrive on time for the school line-up.

So, I had a good cry this morning…a cleansing, softening, releasing cry. I held myself with extra tenderness, honoring my body’s craving for humming in my morning meditation. Journaling came first before work today, because I needed a giant PAUSE. I chose not to wait until later in the day, despite the pressing to-do list. And, because it’s Election Day today, I’ll be pausing even more than I typically do.

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Why It’s Hard for Women to Trust Our Bodies (and Why it Matters)

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“Trust your body more,” my husband offered during my moment of anxiety last week. “Think less.”

“I love it when you hand my words back to me,” I replied knowingly and appreciatively. He smirked. My husband often reminds me of what I already know and what I sometimes lose touch with when my nervous system gets triggered and old patterns come for a visit.

More and more I trust my body, and dwelling in this space of trust has been one of the most transformative shifts on my healing journey. Life continues to offer opportunities to deepen and expand this trust, which is where I am now—a moment of opportunity. I know […]

Delivered to My Healing, Part 2

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Vulnerable. It’s the word that resonated for me the moment a doctor pulled our daughter from my womb, and it’s the one that I return to when I’m contemplating motherhood. My whole heart was suddenly outside of my body the day she was born. I knew this would expand my capacity to feel and to love, and I also knew that my heart would get farther and farther away from its protective cage as my daughter grew, expanding my capacity to feel that vulnerability. Surrendering to this lesson, this truth, has not been easy.

At the time I also remember wondering if they added a sizeable dose of guilt […]