A network of practitioners, teachers, and other healing women supported me in growing this internal capacity for healing. Under the wing of a functional medical doctor, a trusted healing mentor, and a homeopath (among many others), I began to uncover what was happening inside my body and, ultimately, remember the innate healing wisdom inside of me. My lived experience, as well as the stories of other revolutionary healers, taught me that in order to strengthen our wholeness and integrate mind, heart, body, and spirit, we must strengthen our self-awareness, self-love, self-trust, and self-expression. These have become the four foundational components upon which all of my healing flourishes. It sounds so simple, and I suppose it is. But, it’s not easy work. These are principles that I understood decades ago, but actually aligning with them in my life – well, that is something I’m working on every day. Exactly how my body finally healed certain “unhealable” conditions might be viewed by some as a mystery. Indeed, there is so much that science can’t explain about healing. I have the unique perspective of being with this body every day, though, and one thing I know for sure is that my healing capacity began to flourish when I focused on these four pillars of healing.
All of this came after years of hard work, some small improvements in health, and what felt like plenty of challenges. The hard work and small improvements came through those diet changes, yes, among many other things. I still avoid foods that trigger inflammation, and I eat organic, whole foods as much as possible. At the same time, I still appreciate a good craft cocktail and a crunchy corn chip with guacamole. Supplements have been essential, too, since I wasn’t absorbing or assimilating nutrients during so many years of exocrine pancreatic insufficiency, SIBO, and overall dysbiosis. Autoimmunity as well as blood sugar and hormone issues, chronic pain, low blood pressure, numbness and tingling, and so many other symptoms continued, however, despite countless days and dollars spent on acupuncture, chiropractic, and more. When I was finally diagnosed with Lyme, I’d done enough research to know that homeopathy was the next step I wanted to take to target the infection.
I’d taken a lot of homeopathic remedies by 2017 and worked with a few different homeopaths, but that year one remedy shifted something so deeply inside of me that routine bloodwork showed all of my autoimmune markers were negative and my pancreas was making enzymes for the first time in well over six years. It sparked a healing crisis of sorts: My nervous system went into a state of sympathetic activation and my heart rate went up to 100 beats per minute, staying there for weeks. I had no idea what was happening at the time. But it was a gift, again, in the end, as it opened up new doors to learning about brain rewiring, nervous system regulation, and trauma-healing that I’d never known existed. This phase of my healing gave me the body and brain-based tools I needed that, along with the four foundational components I’d been exploring, planted the seeds for lasting change and continuous revolutionary healing. I ultimately earned that my illness (and my healing) was less about Lyme, and more about the overall health of my nervous system. As I continue to build capacity in my nervous system, the more I am fertile ground for healing.